I am Amazing

If you’re on Twitter, you’ve probably seen the “Exposed” movement going around. Women (and men) are making blog posts celebrating their bodies…many are even posting pictures of themselves in just a bra and underwear (well, just underwear for the men). And they are celebrating what is amazing or special about themselves.

There will be no picture here. I wrestled with the idea of doing one, but I’m not ready. But I decided that it shouldn’t keep me from celebrating.

I’d like to say that this is easy for me. I’d *like* to say that. Truth be told, I hate my body. I want to accept it for what it is, but that’s very hard. I have fought it my entire life – I started being the fat kid in 2nd grade, and just continued to grow into the fat woman I am today. I went on my first diet in 3rd or 4th grade (it wasn’t called a diet, and it was actually a really good program, which made the parents come in and learn everything us kids were learning). I’ve been on a diet off and on for many of the past 30 years. (I took a hiatus during the ’90s, because I noticed that I kept pinning my self-worth to the scale. I made the wise decision to try to get to like myself without being on a diet – I think it helped, at least helped me to like myself even if I didn’t like my body.)

I feel like my body is the enemy…but that’s not what this post is about. I want to celebrate.

I have killer calves – they are huge, but mostly all muscle. Why? Because I bike. A lot. In the past 7 months, I have pedaled 500 miles on my bike. Another 500 miles on the stationary bike. I did a 50-mile ride in September, and a 30-mile ride filled with hills.

I have a pretty spectacular brain…I’m not too shy to say that. I use it to share the mysteries of the Universe with school teachers and their students. I have studied black holes at the centers of galaxies.

I have hands that make some cool crafts. Most recently I preserve my memories in scrapbooks. I have sewn numerous clothes, blanket bears, and costumes, weaved a couple beautiful baskets, and cross-stitched some spectacular birth announcements.

I have ears that listen. They hear jokes and laughter, but also listen to hurt and pain. They are always available for anyone who needs a sympathetic listener.

I have arms that are good for hugging – hugging hubbies, kitties and puppies alike (and nieces when I get a chance!)

12 Comments

  1. Jamee said,

    October 14, 2010 @ 1:26 pm

    You are AMAZING!!!

  2. Melissa-Shrinking Jeans said,

    October 14, 2010 @ 1:44 pm

    I love your honesty. You totally rock that bike. I think you are amazing, and I know one of my little boys thinks you are pretty cool too! 🙂

  3. Kirsten said,

    October 14, 2010 @ 1:50 pm

    I’m beyond proud of you for joining in, even without pictures. You could add pictures of just those parts you praised, you know! (*I* can encourage you on adding pictures because you’re my date!) You are an amazing women. Beyond smart, funny, strong (holy calf muscles batman!), and a true friend. Love you!

  4. Christy M. said,

    October 14, 2010 @ 2:38 pm

    Barb,
    Whether or not you posted a picture, you are still exposing the wonderful person you are. And you *are* wonderful – supportive, funny, strong, and beautiful. I’m so glad I’ve gotten to know you!!

  5. Trish said,

    October 14, 2010 @ 4:51 pm

    I second that you are amazing and I thank you so much for sharing this with us!

  6. Brooke said,

    October 14, 2010 @ 7:26 pm

    just how many hubbies do you have?? 😉
    seriously though – your mileage is seriously impressive! and i have it on good authority that you’re a great friend. good news travels fast.

  7. Anonymous said,

    October 14, 2010 @ 10:06 pm

    There are many ways to expose yourself and you chose one of them. I loved learning more about- I scrapbook too…..well, I would do more if I could find the time : ).

  8. Tiffany said,

    October 15, 2010 @ 3:17 am

    Good for you for stepping out AND being willing to acknowledge that you aren’t ready to do a photo. Something tells me, this movement will still be here if/when you are ready.
    Great post!

  9. Mish@EatingJourney said,

    October 18, 2010 @ 2:44 pm

    I can TOTALLY relate to your childhood. I was the ‘fat’ girl throughout my whole entire schooling experience. My name was IHOP throughout 4-5th grade. It was awful. terrible. BUT you’ve done amazing finding the beauty in the things that you’re body has done for you. It’s hard sometimes to have that connected loving relationship with yourself…but you’ve put yourself out there in this post and it’s awesome to read. Thank you for joining the Exposed movement.

  10. Debra said,

    October 18, 2010 @ 8:09 pm

    I was the fat girl too. Nicknamed Porky from about 7 grade through my Senior year.
    I’m totally impressed with the bike mileage. I can’t remember the last time I was on a bike.

    Excellent post. Your words paint the pictures. I loved it.

  11. deb @ ourpiepshow.wordpress.com said,

    October 20, 2010 @ 3:20 am

    Well we have a lot in common – same look to our blogs and same idea – I didn’t post pics either. Your biking is really impressive!! Keep that up!

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